Monday, April 27, 2009

Wedding Mania

Yesterday was my brother, Jacob and his fiance, Megan's engagement party. My mom and I put it together and it turned out to be a lot of fun! About 30 people showed up and it was a great time to celebrate the two of them, their engagement and upcoming marriage.
In 5 weeks, my brother-in-law, David will marry his sweetheart Tami. I'm so excited to have another sister officially. She has been a part of the family as long as I have, but now it will be official. Can't wait to see them get hitched next month!
My good friend Dena Wise is also getting married in June! I get to be in her wedding as one of her bridesmaids. She and I were good friends in jr. high and high school as we attended the same church.
And those are only a few of the couples who are getting married this year!

On another note, my sister is flying in to Seattle on Wednesday. I can't wait to see her. The last time I did was when I was stuck in a hospital bed before Judah was born. It will be great to go out and have some fun with her AND she gets to meet Judah for the first time!

Poor Judah caught my cold that I was fighting this last week. He's got a terrible runny nose and he refuses to let me use the nasal syringe on him. He absolutely hates it and if I manage to get it in his nose (which is next to impossible) he acts like I'm trying to hurt him and cries his eyes out. I decided it's easier to just wipe his nose. I'll have to buy some kleenex for his little nosey. I hope this virus passes quickly and that he is feeling better very soon.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

I survived crying it out...

Last night was rough!
Judah went to bed without a fight at about 8:30, but them woke up at 11 pm crying. I couldn't believe he was hungry, but he was so upset and wouldn't stop crying so I fed him and put him back to bed. Then he woke again at 3 am crying....
Andrew went in to get him and tried to rock him back to sleep but Judah was not having it. I knew I couldn't go in there because I would lose it. This feels like it's been going on for an eternity and I am so done with waking up throughout the night. I felt like we should let him cry, and apparently Andrew did too because he came back in the bedroom, told me to stay in bed and said that we were going to let him cry.
And we did....he cried and cried and cried for about 45 minutes. It was really tough not to go in there, but I honestly feel like there is no other way to get him to fall back asleep on his own at this point. He's not hungry, it's a comfort thing. We've got to stop catering to his night wakings. He calmed down around 4:15 am and was quiet for about 15 minutes at which point Andrew and I decided it was safe to go ahead and fall asleep.
Then he started up again and cried for another half an hour until he finally was so tired that he conked out.
It was so hard not to go in there and comfort him and tell him it was going to be okay and pick him up and rock him. I just knew that it wouldn't do any good, that I would end up giving in and feeding him which he didn't need and I am trying so desperately to teach him that it's okay to sleep by himself for the night.
I thought for sure he would hate us both in the morning, but when he woke up at about 7:30 am (his usual wake up time) he was his happy little self. He was smiling and excited to see me. I was very relieved to see that I hadn't permanently damaged my child.
I don't know how many more times we are going to have to do this, but I'm hoping and praying not many. Obviously this is our last resort, as this has been going on almost every night since he was born. He is definitely old enough to be sleeping through the night without eating, but for some reason he hasn't caught on to that notion yet.
I just want to do the right thing for him and teach him that he can fall back to sleep on his own.
It's weird because he falls asleep on his own initially all the time for naps and at bedtime, but when it comes to the middle of the night, he gets so incredibly upset and can't for the life of him figure out how to go back to sleep without eating first.
FRUSTRATING!!!
I just hope we are doing the right thing and I wish I had all the answers.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

funk

I'm in a funk today and I don't know why....
I'm frustrated and irritated at everything right now. It's stemming mostly from feeling like I suck as a parent. I don't know why it seems like everyone else's baby is sleeping except for mine. He just refuses to sleep through the night. The longest he will sleep is 4-5 hours at a time. Sometimes he wants to eat at midnight and it's ridiculous! I don't understand! Is he not getting enough to eat during the day and he therefore wants to eat at night?
I really don't think it has anything to do with teething or moving around either. When he wakes up, he wants to eat and gets sooo pissed if he doesn't get fed. There is no crying it out with him. It doesn't work. I am left feeling so frustrated about this situation. I wish I had all the answers. I feel like I'm just screwing up royally with him in this aspect. If he needs to eat, then fine, but why at 12 am? It's not like he can't fall asleep on his own either...he does it all the time for his naps and at bedtime. Both of which have improved drastically from a month ago....
Sometimes I want to rip my hair out because I feel like it's never going to improve and that he's always going to wake up and want to eat in the middle of the night. I know that's not true, but that's how it feels at the moment.
So I guess I do know why I'm upset....and it's spilling over into everything else.

Thankfully I have a sweet husband who does his best to help me get out of my funk....

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Beautiful Day!

I am headed over to my mom's house to spend the day outside in her garden. I don't think it's going to be quite as warm as it was yesterday, but none the less, the sun is shining and that is all that matters to me.
Judah and I went to Mill Creek Town Center yesterday to walk around and enjoy the weather. He loved being outside too. I let him have bare feet since it really seemed too warm for him to be wearing shoes and socks. It was too cute!
Rachel's wedding on Friday was amazing. I didn't know I would be so emotional over her wedding day! She was so stunningly gorgeous - the most beautiful bride I've ever seen. Just breath taking! I felt so honored to be a part of her day and to stand by her side while she said her vows.
I have to say that I gave a pretty kick ass speech too. I made everyone cry, including many different men who told me so afterward. I blew the best men out of the water! They went up to Adam afterward and apologized for not giving a better speech. Pretty good for someone who gets realllly nervous talking in front of crowds!
I love my best friend and I am so happy for her. I can't wait to see her when she gets back from Cabo!

Well, my bean is awake from his nap so we are headed off to Grandma's house!

Thursday, April 2, 2009

My Best Friend's Wedding

My best friend, Rachel Godwin, is getting married tomorrow! I get to be her maid (or rather matron) of honor too. It is so surreal to think that her and Adam will be husband and wife by this time tomorrow. They will be whisked away to their honeymoon in Cabo San Lucas.
Wow! My best friend! It's crazy! She is the first of any of my close friends to get married and this is the first wedding I get to be in. I just can't believe it's already time! I hope and pray for the best for their marriage. Tomorrow is going to be a truly unforgettable day.

On a different note, my husband is the best! He's been on extra dad duty lately since I've had to do a lot of running around with Rachel for the wedding and for different parties and get togethers. Tonight he made me cookies! They are amazing too. I told him they taste better than any old batch of cookies I've ever made! He disagreed of course. He gets to be Mr. Mom tomorrow while I'm with Rachel all day.

With that said, I think that I fall more and more in love with my little boy every single day. He is such a priceless treasure to me. He is the most precious thing in my life and I would do absolutely anything for him. He is so sweet and I just love the personality that he is developing. He knows how to be silly and laugh with me and knows how to act in response to be me being goofy with him. He makes me laugh so much! Just like his daddy. I love watching his reaction to different things in his surroundings. It is so amazing to see the world through his innocent eyes.
I just want to be the best mom that I can possibly be for him.

Well I have a big day tomorrow, so I should get to sleeping! Night!